Amazed

I must admit that I was feeling quite miserable inside the past two weeks, an emotional, psychological and physical drain that I never experienced before. I still look and sound alright outside but on the inside, it's terrible. I cannot explain it myself.

however, as I read and as I began to dwell on the Word again, I felt a sense of relief. an immense lifting of burden that I so desire. slowly, but surely, this bad feeling will be diluted and I will stand strong inside again~! I must say that the weekend trek helped a lot as well. there were no tigers spotted and the winds were strong up there, steep terrain and leeches to go along. BUT, I had a lot of time to pray and meditate, though at some points, my mind was just: lets finish this and start eating/sleeping.

Work is getting very much better now. after two months here, I am well part of the team and the team part of me. i go to work with familiar people and no longer strangers.

Cell is not much better, I have no idea if the problem is with me, the system, or the people. I have to set time aside to pray for the cell. and my friends in KZ and my family and so many more... on top of this, I am challenged to be the SC for crusade engin region and this is not going to be easy.

Lord please show me the way.