kayak is over... and done with

finally, i have finished my dose of sun sand and the sea. enought to keep me away from those elements for some time...

its really really time to start on my tests revision and assignment mugging. tmr and thursday. have to plan in some time for dg, some time for, mentoring and some time for myself.

was informed via email that i am shortlisted for a part time job as a camp instructor, interview on thurs. i have to find out more from them if i can handle it.

tired liao lah... the weather for the past two days was fantastic, to say the least.

was informed by bernard that my mentee was asking why i wasn't down at wsss for a long time liao. haiz.... i want to give him more time! hope fully i can give him tuition loh?

so much to do, so little time...

God, i need divine intervention and sustanance... keep me strong and faithful!

term break prelude

hmm... another week over... i went to daniel's church activity on sat afternoon... we play a captain's ball league... four team versus each other... i really enjoyed it even when we lost. that's seldom of me...

i went for mass bible study after that. i think it was fruitful... i reached home at 11pm cos the bible study ended late...around 10pm. i talked to ruby when i got back, and we talked till abt 12mn. i think our r'ship is getting better, she's opening up more to me... at least now she calls me when she needs someone to talk, not just alvin.

went for 2nd svc today, totally enjoyed the sermon and found it super useful and applicable. i guess thats just how God talks to people...

I have kayaking tmr and tues ah... jialat... i better make my little time productive... to make up for the loss time...

long friday indeed

its saturday morning when i opened my eyes... what happened?

yesterday had long lectures that stretched into the afternoon. went for lunch at sci and was preparing my assignment to submit for biochem. went for biochem lecture and when we were released early, i was soooo happy, until i saw the rain. had to walk one big round just to get to the bus stop to take a bus to engin. at engin, went back to lab to take a few readings but the lab was closed! sharks! so i went for dg instead.

met up with david and david, haha, and we had a good chat. got to know david better... he was a signaller with 2nd sig bn. doing trunk comms. i was sharing with him my interest in fish keeping also...

after that went to src to play bball with kahsum, swm and huanyang. was a bad game for me cos i was so hungry and tired that i couldn't perform. went to nuh for makan malam. and when i finally came back to my room, it was already 11pm.

so i just had some admin stuff, fixed my printer problem and started to read a book called 'no compromises' given to me by my sister in 2002. then the next thing was morning 730am.

did quiet time, and here are my reflection for the day:

it takes strength to be firm. it takes courage to be gentle.
it takes strength to stand guard. it takes courage to let down your guard.
it takes strength to conquer. it takes courage to surrender.
it takes strength to be certain. it takes courage to have doubt.
it takes strength to fit in. it takes courage to stand out.
it takes strength to feel a friend's pain. it takes courage to feel your own pain.
it takes strength to hide feelings. it takes courage to show them.
it takes strength to endure abuse. it takes courage to stop them.
it takes strength to stand alone. it takes courage to lean on another.
it takes strength to love. it takes courage to be loved.
it takes strength to survive. it takes courage to live.

there's a lot of work to be done, tests to study for and assignments to be submitted. Lord grant me strength to accomplish what i set out to do. Amen.

the day i ran with yusen and arthur

went running with yusen last night at 10.30pm. met arthur along the way and he joined us.

yusen was saying he haven't ran for a long time but he was on constant pace with me loh. i guess most people who do well academically are usually quite fit. i must say that your health is your own responsibilty. no one can take ownership of your health.

when running with arthur, i was reminded of the days in sispec, striving for the ippt gold just in exchange of a bit more time of freedom. given the immense freedom now, how do i fare in keeping fit? this principle applies to many other things. --> people usually dun cherish whatever they are holding on to right now until its gone and far.

lemme learn to take ownership in things and be proud in whatever i do!

lab day today... my favourite!

a few good men

i just got a call from the crusade staff telling me that i am on the team to central asia. also that i will be the team leader if there is no objection. i guess i will have to be liao loh. i am quite apprehensive cos there are more senior guys in the team, also there is the inexperience in fund raising, but i trust that God will provide!

i was studying at science with serene just now, she had a headache. i think she is quite stressed out, from the way i see it. i told her to get a good rest and dun fall sick anytime soon. hope that she pulls through.

i have many things to do ah!

休息是为了走更长远的路!

let me finish my cn2116 tutorial then i'll retire for the day liao.

rayson's soccer boots 

Valentine's day, friendship day?

indulging myself in my lab report and another assignment due tomorrow, valentine's day went past just like that. i dun understand y am i even thinking about it.

work is fun, i mean, you learn a lot from it. today at tutorial, my tutor also the lecturer told us to 'wake up' and start to learn. he want us to realise that knowledge doesn't come to you like that, you have to fight to gain knowledge. i guess the same principle apply to other things as well. whatever your heart seeks, you have to work towards it and not sit there and dream. thats why they say, if you can dream it, you can realise it.

it's time to 'wake up' liao.

Lord i pray that Your will be done and not mine.

一寸光阴，一寸金！

寸金难买寸光阴。this phase just came to my mind like that. chinese came and went just like that. those who bothered to go visiting their relatives got a chance to catch up a bit with them, while those who didn't bothered will have to wait another year. guess this is just how it goes.

i did not go visiting with my jc friends nor crusade people this year cos of the work that has to be done. fell a sense of pity but it is over liao lah. i was watching tv for a while when i saw this interview with the china ambassdor to singapore, reminiscing about his days in his 'kampong' before he went to beijing university and eventually becoming a government official. how he cannot forget the niang dou fu that his mother used to make. reminds me that its usually the simple things in life that makes life so beautiful.

tomorrow is valentines day. for some it is going to be a very beautiful day indeed.

i think i'll get back to work, kkh says that he only spends 15mins a day watching tv, i wonder if he read the newspapers. thats all for today. hope i can finish what i set out to accomplish today. God grant me strength and discipline!

peanut and butter 

bt gombak

大年初二

初一 was a good day of movie and talking at clementi a.k.a 大伯 's house. it was a little quiet though, the hougang people did not come down this year. i guess its reciprocal lah, for relationships you'd really have to put in extra effort. i just hope that when i have a home next time, it'll always be a very 'busy' 热闹 place!

after that we went to bt gombak a.k.a 外婆家. it was a very different feeling there. though there wasn't many people, the atmospere was very nice. warm. i liked it. alvin also came over for dinner. after that we all came to our house (except for 外婆 and 外公 and 舅舅) and stayed till late. i played soccer with my cousins downstairs and eventually alvin came down to join us after ruby fell asleep.

today we went to 大姑阿亚家 at bedok, had a nice lunch and saw a rabbit trying to burrow. after that we went to 大姑家 at hougang. she not in the best of health but looks better than last year. she hads diabetes and high blood pressure now. i think we just have to cherish our lives and live them to the best of our ability. thats a form of glorifying God as well. no need to self pity or have a low self esteem. i've learnt that.

in the evening, i met bernard, jianbang, kelvin and melvyn at the airport to send sehling off to study at australia. everything was fine until she was about to go in. tears start to swell and eyes turn red, not me lah but the girls. now that i think about it, i can understand better why. 人怎么说都是肉体动物，有感情和思想。在一起生活久了的家人，在离别的时刻，难免有丝不舍之情。就好象把你身上的一部分割去似的，多不好受。i hope that she'll find new strength and direction in this passage of her life.

amazing how time flies. i really cherish every moment i can spend with all my family, relatives and friends... not that i usually don't but i know that i have a place, a role and a responsibility to play in their lives...

i'd better go do some lab report, and get a good rest soon. rest is giving some time to your self also.

安睡！

at t1 

at clementi 

my everything 

growl! 

tiger in ubin 

yum yum! 

up close and personal 

Reunion dinner

last night we had a reunion dinner with 阿伯, 伯母, wendy, simon, jacklyn, 二伯 (aka clementi gang), 姑仗， 姑姑，victor, jeremiah, jolene, 叔叔，四婶, spencer, dilan and my family. we can fill just two tables perfectly.

got a couple of updates from my cousins.
1. jolene's expecting a baby in november!
2. wendy is getting married in december!

the end of this year is definitely an exciting time. good thing that i am not going for noc.

tonight we eating dinner at home! maybe will go to chinatown with crusade people? see if can get transport first.

God is good, all the time.
all the time, God is good.

Bentley

as you can read the title, i saw a bentley arnage coupe when i was going home from church today. it was silver in colour and the driver was, as you guessed, an old man, hahaha. was thinking at the back of my mind if i'll ever get a chance to sit in one of those.

yesterday's youth gathering was a bang! i sure had fun with the youths tho i was feeling just slightly over aged. i had a calling that i have to set a good example for the young people in church... just a thot.

after church ytd, i went to jurong point with rayson and i bought him a pair of addidas soccer boots. very cool. spent about 60+ dollars. guess i wun be buying cny clothes for myself liao... i am very happy with the way he is conducting himself and i thot that it is good that they are letting him play soccer together and i want to be a channel of blessing to him.

today's sermon was excellent! the speaker said something like: God's delay does not mean denial! wow, i was blown away, cos i was still thinking of how am i going or where am i heading since i did not get the noc program. now i think there is much hope for me!

also he mentioned about being intercessors for others and it was a very powerful tool! i can definitely appreciate that.

no work done this weekend again... cannot go on like that liao... tmr there's smt... pray that everything will go on fine...

gd nitesz

End of Crazy week! Hurray!

finally, it has come to an end... tho with more to come... i am relieved now.

just came back from prayer and power night. it was about breakthrough in the family. i thought of ruby instead of my parents. i thought of the letter she gave me and how she has grown up and i broke into tears. i could feel the sense of guilt and the forgiveness... i will still be praying for her.

looking forward to the cny gathering for youths in grace assembly tomorrow!

gd nitez.. tired

weary

hi,

lab in the afternoon was good! at least i feel more engineering.

was at science doing work with berd and swm. cos we went there for dinner after a game of basketbell. berd played soccer.

quite a futile attempt at solving the problems though.

while walking back from science, i was reminded of the 32km route march in sispec. i had a very bad abrasion on my inner thighs after that.

find that everything is so meaningless... (solomon).

super tired ah!!!

Middle of crazy week.. Hanging in there!

heeelllloooo....

i am going for gen12ii.... its overseas mission project by campus crusade for Christ. i am really excited.

i am playing guitar for sm training this coming monday.

i'll not be going home this weekend. will be going for kayaking then back to sch then kayaking then back to sch. anyway, cny coming so if i can finish my work first, i can have quality time with my family.

it is not how lovely a person is but how much love you can give them.

many are blessed. so am i, with whatever little i haf, i am blessed. but who will be the blessing?

you make a living by what you get, you make a life by what you give.

gd nitez!