the crazy week has started!

i was busy the whole day!

helped at the bazaar, talked to sijie, attend lessons, help at bazaar again.... now i am tired... without having done any work yet

good luck to me!

because i should or because i want to?

today i went to church with serene and kelvin. the sermon reminded me to do things for people because you mean it. i was driving ruby to her church in the morning tho i felt that she should go there herself because i only allocated enough time to bring me and rayson to church. in short, i sent her there without meaning it. i was guilty.

after church we had char kway teow and fried 豆干for lunch. it was simply delicious. and after that we went to ntuc at bt merah.

have you ever wondered about why you do certain things? do you do them because you truly believe in them or jus because thats what i should do?

trust that its always better to do things from the heart. no burdens no worries no regrets.

just finished bible study with ruby and rayson. it was a good time together. really could feel God's presence in the room. i was touched by God! Hallelujah!

the busy week ahead suddenly feels so manageable!

i leave my burdens at the feet of Christ and He'll take them all.

kayak+bbq=tired

this morning i came home from sch at 730am. when i reached home it was abt 815am and i went for breakfast at macdonalds with mum, ruby and rayson. we had sausage mcmuffin with egg(me and rayson) and egg mcmuffin (mum) while ruby had hotcakes with sausage.

i rushed home to look at my tutorials and had to leave soon for kayaking.

it was a good introduction and a good forecast of what to expect in days to come. we did some capsize drills and practised the one star skills with the 'skirt' on.

after that was a mad rush to regina's place at yio chu kang for a bbq. the food was aplenty. the 'seniors' gave two webcams to sehling.

now i am very tired.

Insomnia

its 0214 in the morning. i am tired yet i am still awake. i was searching for names of people whom i know on the net. and it was interesting to see some of their past activities in school. i also saw a very long 'glory list' of rjc alumni who were awarded this scholarship and that scholarship.

i also chanced upon this website that might be useful to all those who are attending interviews soon. http://www.collegegrad.com/intv/
if only i read this website's materials before going for the interview.

i wonder if the scholars understand how much the are 'valued'. and if the rest of us understands how much we are valued in God's view.

its not easy to face rejection. i now better understnad how God feels when people reject Him and say that He is not there, or they choose to not believe in Him.

gd nitez...zzz...zzz...

Turned down by NOC

hello,

y did i say hello, hello sounds happy. am i happy? or am i sad? i am not sad but i am definitely not happy. lets just say that i am disillusioned again. many things that i thought would be good was not good enough.

if i take up the job of st now, am i treating it as an alternative rather than a priority? i was indeed blessed by the talk tonight. there is so much i can do but yet so little. what goes on from here? i feel stuck again.

5 more sems? or 5 sems left? the first sounds sianzipua already. the second sounds like a lot more needs to be done. am i the first or the second?

everyone tells me God is in control and has better plans for me. i know that. but He has also given pain so that i can know that something is wrong. that i can remedy it.

i am tired and this is my prayer:
Dear Father in heaven, You know me best. i choose to submit everything into Your hands and i pray that i can lead a life that is glorifying Your name. i thank You for Your faithfulness and loving kindness. i pray that all my friends will be saved and they come to experience Your great love. a stumbling block might have come into my way but i thank You for giving me the chance to learn. i might have lost something material but i have gained in many other ways. if You are willing, please give me another chance to go for the program but if not, please show me Your ways, which are higher than mine. i ask all these in Jesus' name, Amen

taming chaos

sounds like the name of a module? dun worry, no lectures here...

i juz finished a game of bball with zixiang and swm. we challenged a group of people playing at the court, there was ihg going on and it was very crowded. i think i enjoyed myself very much, close fight but we won in the end, not once but all the games... we played well today. the players are church friends from some methodist church and one of them is actually an australian student. he said, see you at the hillsongs conference soon! haha... quite tempting.

i met toc at the eusoff games. he just moved into eh. he's still quite the same, albeit more mellow. chance that we can organise a bmt section gathering? hope we have time for that before i go for noc if i am going.

talking about noc, i just found out that chee wei is already in the program and she is going to shanghai. so if i am accepted, i have a buddy liao... haha yay!! also this year is both fudan and nus centennial celebrations so i am really excited about going to china.

whoa... this is the next morning already. i fell asleep at 12 plus after a drink a bit of talk with andrew. was reading the notes when i couldn't tahan the heavy eyelids and decide to lie on the table. as it turned out, the bed was magnetic and the table induced a magnetic field in me so i was attracted to the bed. the next thing i know, it was 3am. pack up a bit and went back to bed.

you know how the title is related to the topic? as we all know, undergrads in nus have to juggle so many stuff on their hands. cca, cap score, relationships, family, tuition and so it goes. how do we find meaning and motivation and relevance in all that we do? hmmm... thats what i mean by taming chaos, putting things in perspective and order. if you want to find out more about taming chaos in your life, please drop me a message.

p.s. there is a talk this thursday, 27th jan at lt9, just beside the arts canteen. its about the tsunami and there will be a q&a session to answer all your question to the 'christian response to the tsunami incident which happened on 26th dec 2004, a day after christmas. hope to catch you there!

byebye
-->tutorial in 20mins<--

Braised pig trotters!

finally can break fast liao... shiok manz

after a scrumptous dinner with my parents, ruby and alvin, and rayson. i think its soon time for more work. the tv is playing stephen chow's 月光宝盒, a super funnie show that i have watched many many times but it never fails to make me laugh, some lame and super corny jokes. hahahahahahahahaha........

i went to second service today with kelvin and serene and we were studying at science centre macs since after church. rayson went for soccer with his church mates. life is very good. i am lokoing for an opportunity to invite my parents to church. thats my greatest wish.

i must stand firm in the Lord. as the song goes "into Your hands, i commit again, with all i am, to You..... .... Jesus i believe in You, You're the reason that i live, the reason that i give, with all i am..."

if you have not heard the good news about what Christ has done in my life,and for everyone out there, i'll be most honoured to share it with you one day, just ask me!

cny is just round the corner, really looking forward to it. i am really praying that God will use me to be His channel of blessings to all those around me.

long weekend

yooo hooooo...

its a long weekend! i went running this morning with swm and we went to nuh for breakfast, berd went home early in the morning. swm ordered a plate of chick rice and we are left with insufficient cash for me to buy breakfast since we are using the tap card/keychain. the uncle, out of kindness, gave us a plate of rice free! yes, its free! as we started eating swm asked me, is it me or is it the rice but i find that the rice is a bit uncooked. haha, seems like even the kind hearted uncle was just trying to get rid of his not-so-welldone rice.

after that was reading and studying time. i was feeling really drowsy and in the end i slept for one hour, before reading my process dynamics control text. we went home in the afternoon and i was slacking till now. though i read a bit of my reaction engineering book. tomorrow have to work double hard. i mean after this i have to work double hard. i'll finish the reaction engineering homework problems first. tmr haf to do mass transfer operations tutorial and also pdc assignments.

a few of my female classmates celebrating their 21st this few weeks. i haven't attended any, i dunno why but i really dun have the mood to celebrate tho i understand how significant 21st is to most people. tmr there's one but i am going to church so i wun be going down also.

我得开始段练我的中文了。

大家晚安！

1st LM of the year 2005

hey all,

i just came back from combined life meeting at science faculty lt29. it was great, arun was with me and bixia spoke on obeying God's will and going for missions. last weekend was missions convention in grace assembly too, so i am very excited abt what God is putting in my life.

i think God also gave me a different insight on the part on the parable of the talents. i thought of how true it is that the rich will get richer and the poor, whatever they have will be taken from them. so true yet so cruel.

i am even more thankful that God put me in such a country and that i am blessed with such good environment to grow up in. i am really keen now to go out and be a blessing.

NOC

i was just reading on the noc website and i started to study the potential companies that i may be applying to and there i saw a couple of very good prospects. among them are hyflux, sinochem and akzonobel.

i'm getting really excited abt going over. i am doing mental preparation for the resume and interview. now i just pray really hard that i'll be accepted either to usa or to shanghai. i'll really have to entrust them to God.

i am going to sleep soon.

nitezzz...zzz...zzz

the first post on blogspot

Hey all,

I'm giving blogspot a try. Seems like the interface is better.