Whats wrong?

I am not so sure if it's me or it's with the rest. I am rather attached to my family, I do love them a lot and I am grateful for them. Somehow or rather, I was quite upset when I heard the news that the mother of one of our technician has passed away. I begin to worry about losing my mother and my father. This is quite stupid but so very realistic. I began to exchange emails with my mum and I realised that she is so a real person that I cannot but love her for who she is and what she has done in my life. I am very grateful to God for placing me in this family, now I can only do my best in everything that I do to maximise this blessings and translate and relay it to those around me. I can only thank God.

The kayaking this morning was good. I am now feeling so floaty and tired as well. I met quite a number of friends this morning at the place, Aaron was with me. Andrew went to SDU for sponsorship and so turned out that we had a bit of games as well for this expedition. Not too bad an idea. Also hope that Junjie will join us for the trek in Johor.

I have also decided and signed up for gen12 again to Malaysia this time since I cannot go back to Central Asia. I really should email and pray for my CA friends soon. I realised how little time we really have and how we really have to set our eyes on eternity, always focused on the far goal so that we don;t stray away.

This is a crucial part of everybody's life, making decision that have repercussions in out life. My prayer is for the cell to mature and settled so that the future generations can be gathered and multiply. Love is not self-seeking, hope that in everything that I try to magnify His love, I will not be egocentric nor self serving.

Overcomed by the world?

many days I felt powerless against this whole idea of society and work and making a living and living a Christian life. how hard is it when your time is no longer your own and you no longer live for yourself but also for another group of people, be it your family, church, company or other institutions. the loyalty and allegiance to that group of people will ultimately decide how you shape your life. And amidst all these, comes the relentless barrage of temptations and more temptations...

A quote from Our Daily Bread:

More purity give me, more strength to overcome,
More freedom from earth stains, more longings for home,
More fit for the kingdom, more used I would be,
More blessed and holy-more Saviour, like Thee. - Bliss

Thank God for my family and close friends who have kept me sane till this day.